Happy 4th July !!!

Happy 4 July !!!!!!

No one sings the Star Spangled Banner better than Whitney Houston ...

After all, it is the only version ever to make it up all the way to the Top 5 of the American Billboard Hot 100 charts, and making it the one and only song ever written in the 18th century to chart.

Not to mention, having sold over 4 million copies , it is one of the Top 3 biggest selling singles of all time.

(Just FYI: The Second-Biggest selling single of all time 'I Will Always Love You' was also song by Ms. Houston and first being that most-annoying 'Candle In the Wind' by Queen Elton John)

Befitting achievements as mountainous as her souring vocals in the song. Amazing.

Can't wait for her new come-back album out this year.^^)

Q .... 'Laaaaaaannnnddddd of the BRRRRRAAAAAAAAVVVVVVVVEEEEEE !!!!'

Ending to a Beautiful Book

We finally settled our differences.

We finally ended it all.

For the better. For each other.

We finally talked it out. Trashed it out.

And came back as friends.

With more love and respect than we've ever had for each other .

No longer intimate . But stronger as friends.

I'll treasure the memories we've had together .

I'll wish each other happiness and dreams come true for everything we put our efforts and hearts to.

Looking ahead. Happy for each other.

A broken relationship. But not a broken heart.

Q .... I will Always love you baby.

A & A 4 eva.

The Parcel

So much effort. So much monetary investment. So much of time and love put in.

A gift. A parcel.

A relationship gone so cold you don't even know if it even still exist.


But one thing's for certain .

My love is still there and that's all that matters.

For too long , I was in pain.

I deserve happiness. Because I am so much better.

I'm worth it.

Such is the Power of the Universe!

Just last night, just before I'm due to send out The Parcel, I met my close friend who's been through this with me all the way, on the streets.
How cool is that?^^

And we talked about appreciating my gifts and my life and having enough self worth to seek positivity into my life. She's so right.

There are millions out there who are suffering and have less gifts than me.

If even they can find happiness, I shouldn't be dwelling but counting on my blessing.

My life isn't wretched. I shouldn't let it be.

The whole of this week, I've survived on next to no sleep and spending hell lot of money and effort on The Parcel.


Could have simply gotten my baby a straight off-the-shelf expensive gift.

But that'll mean nothing.

It was therapeutic to make it all my own, the customization and the process of me putting in my love.

I see it as working hard, toiling away and being determined to give this the one last final shot.

Because happiness is not easily gotten.
I got to work hard for it. For me.

The relationship is either saved , Or I've freed myself.

There was no resolution . Such was the cruelty of my Baby...

Thereby explaining the pain I'm in.


So I've sought my own.

And took ownership of my life; walking away the Bigger person and with nothing to hide, fear ot regret.

So, after this closure, I'm either back in the comforts of my baby, or

.....I am FREE.

Q ... a gift for another is a Bigger gift for myself.

Ending on a Happy Note.

Happy Birthday to me.

Ok, truth is, my pain's still there, for my supposed loved one doesnt care if I'm hurt and recieve no resolution.

Anyway, I WANT TO BE HAPPY. I WANT TO START POSITIVE.

So yes, I'm'going to Smile to be Happy and be happy and smile.

Thus,

"HAPPY NEW YEAR, 2009!" to all .

Wishing you all the best and may your dreams come true and life filled with fulfilment and bliss.

You get what you deserve. :-)


It's evening soon. And the countdown is soon to be in a couple of hours time.

So I'd be partying at a new club I've never been to before (actually it's the old MOS which closed down this year; oh yes, marking a closure to a chapter of my clubbing life for I've spent many nights there for the past 2 years)

Yes, to get myself in the celebratory mood.

To distract myself.

Hopefully, the new year will bring me satisfaction and happiness. And love.

Happy new everybody, once more.

Next blog entry? Check back next year. ^^

Q... Ciaos and cheerios!

One Night Stand. Alone.

It's exactly 7pm here in Kuala Lumpur.

First Class seats on my jouney here was expensive but worth it.

As I'm typing this in the executive lounge of my hotel suite, with the world famous Petronas Twin Towers behind him (as in LITERALLY BEHIND me; the view is magnificent.) , with a VIP-only Rave Party to head to tonight, I should be enjoying my self.

I should be leaving the problems where home is.

But , still, I'm left here staring at the beautiful scenery outside my window, wondering where my Baby is.

Is my Baby even thinking of me?

What's my baby doing back in Jakarta?

Cruel , my baby is.

I'm sad. I'm devastated. I'm lonely.

Waiting for an elusive message. Waiting for the elusive call.

I'm sad. I really am.

Q ... I pray for peace. Not numbness. I pray for my baby coming back to me.

I must be Mightier.

LOVE: Stronger Apart Stronger Together

Am terribly distraught.

The pains of being in Love.

The pain of avoidance from the one you love most. :(


Lo and Behold!

A close friend had come to my rescue.

With words of wisdom and peace.

Read on and be touched...
***
Joyce says:

to move someone mighty

Joyce says:
u need to be mightier

Joyce says:
and might

Joyce says:
is not displayed through force

Joyce says:
but can only be tamed and shown

Joyce says:
through courage, n true strength

Joyce says:
that will radiate its own light

Joyce says:
so gently but surely

Joyce says:
make her come to see how wonderful u are

Joyce says:
there is no need to act desperate

Joyce says:
just like when u choose your wife

Joyce says:
u wil never want to be with a woman

Joyce says:
that needs u

Joyce says:
is desperate for u

Joyce says:
u would want want that respects u

Joyce says:
gives u time and space

Joyce says:
and yet

Joyce says:
love u in her own way

Joyce says:
like u hire a computer technician

Joyce says:
u dun want a newbie who's still learning

Joyce says:
u want a professional that

Joyce says:
u dun have to teach

Joyce says:
so, take this time apart

Joyce says:
to polish yourself

Joyce says:
grow in your character

Joyce says:
and person

Joyce says:
and she will know what she has missed out on

Joyce says:
and if its really love

Joyce says:
it will come back to u

Joyce says:
and u will understand this after u read what i've sent to u

Joyce says:
love yourself first

Joyce says:
and to touch a girl's heart

Joyce says:
its never through look

Joyce says:
its through sincerity

Joyce says:
and most importantly

Joyce says:
through her heart

Joyce says:
make her understand what love is about

Joyce says:
send her this if it touches yours

Joyce says:
n explain to her what u have learnt

Joyce says:
and if she chooses to ignore u

Joyce says:
don't beat yourself up on it

Joyce says:
cuz everything that happens has a reason

Joyce says:
and u will have another season

Joyce says:
another love yet again

Joyce says:
and this time u will be better for the person

Joyce says:
take this experience and cherish it

Joyce says:
savour the moments if u must

Joyce says:
make this your eternal memory

Joyce says:
of only goodness

Joyce says:
and see how u can move to greater stuff in your life

Joyce says:
don't let this set u back

Joyce says:
remember

Joyce says:
law of attraction

Joyce says:
the good attracts the good

Joyce says:
light attracts light

Joyce says:
no darkness would want to come near light

Joyce says:
for they will be exposed

Joyce says:
so learn to shine, n there will be more than

Joyce says:
plenty of wonderful people around u

Joyce says:
u are a very wonderful person

Joyce says:
so i just take sometime to share some of my life's perspective with u

Joyce says:
and i hope u can be better because of what u have gone thru

Joyce says:
i speak only from my heart and my life

Joyce says:
appreciate the moments

Joyce says:
for it is truely what u have

Joyce says:
but let it not define your greatness ok?

Joyce says:
for u are made for more wonderful things

Joyce says:
=)

Joyce says:
so as long as i see u learn to grow and be happy again

Joyce says:
life's not only about partying u know

Joyce says:
hehe

Joyce says:
but there is always a time to party

Joyce says:
a paradox but true

Joyce says:
like we always plan for the future

Joyce says:
but the future is now

Joyce says:
this moment

Joyce says:
its how we choose to see things and let it take us from here

Joyce says:
to whatever we so desire

Joyce says:
the amazing thing is that if we know what we want and set our minds on it

Joyce says:
there is absolutely nothing that can ever stop us to achieving it

Joyce says:
the universe will even help us along to acheiveing it

Joyce says:
its only we who are barriers to ourselves

Joyce says:
cuz we aren't sure of what we want

Joyce says:
when things happen n u see it as a failure it never is just that

Joyce says:
its just a feedback

Joyce says:
change the method

Joyce says:
and see if u will succeed

***

Q .... eternally grateful . Thank you!

And I pray for the bliss of such a beautiful person who's been true a lot and given so much more.

Silence is not Golden...***

... in a Relationship.

There are the upheavals.

The ups and downs. But problems don't solve themselves.

Only through open and positive communication will things work out.

Talk it out. Make it happen.

Q ... BB .. If you're reading this... :)


*** Only a Tan, is. :P

I'd give the World to see Her face again..

The only two songs I'd listen to right now.

When one has lost a dearest, they feel like the whole world is a crumpling. There is this void in my life right now. A sense of purposelessness with out her existence.

I start thinking of all the times we've had and start drawing up a mental list of things I should and could have done and those that I would or should not have.

No matter, the reality is that she's gone. And will never come back.

And all I can do is moan and grieve and beat myself up for all the things I 've said, thought and done but should have not. And all that that I ought to.

No words can describe the deep sorrow I am in right now and because out of respect, this is a must for me to come full circle.

Foxxxy
> From here on, it is a turning point in my life in so many ways, both personally, professionally, socially and spiritually. It's a hard journey that I am unfortunate not being able to have her around.

A New opening chapter for me. And a closing one for her.

I'd give the world to see her face again.

Q