You're a Star to a T

(Star Turtle; the album by Harry Connick Jr.)

Foxxxy's been gone for slightly over a month now ... and my fam's still searching to fill that large vacuole in our lives right now.

Something more to pet and feed.

Not just Caspian the Guinea Pig. (ok, go ahead, laugh.)

So we got two... Indian Star Turtles.

Beautiful and endangered.

Well, they've got a beautiful home now. And are Lucky . Because we'll take great care of them.

Here's a PROMISE!!! :)


Q

>>> What should we call them? ... (watch this space^^.)

She deserves better

It's been Exactly 1 MONTH since Foxxxy's passing.

And there are A**holes out there who are careless, insensitive, sarcastic and ignorant of her unfortunate demise.


Making twisted comments.

Rude & petty imbeciles.

GTH, You F*ckers.

You belong to a Zoo.


>>

"All dogs go to Heaven. And (some) f*ckers will go to hell..."

Q


(>> RIP Foxxxy. Missed dearly.)

7 Days

She's been gone. She IS GONE.

Life goes on. We cope.

We still grieve. But when the grieving stops, she's still Gone.

So very missed.

R.I.P Foxxxy Cleopatra. ... it's been a Week.

Q

> My fam is beginning to find peace.

I'd give the World to see Her face again..

The only two songs I'd listen to right now.

When one has lost a dearest, they feel like the whole world is a crumpling. There is this void in my life right now. A sense of purposelessness with out her existence.

I start thinking of all the times we've had and start drawing up a mental list of things I should and could have done and those that I would or should not have.

No matter, the reality is that she's gone. And will never come back.

And all I can do is moan and grieve and beat myself up for all the things I 've said, thought and done but should have not. And all that that I ought to.

No words can describe the deep sorrow I am in right now and because out of respect, this is a must for me to come full circle.

Foxxxy
> From here on, it is a turning point in my life in so many ways, both personally, professionally, socially and spiritually. It's a hard journey that I am unfortunate not being able to have her around.

A New opening chapter for me. And a closing one for her.

I'd give the world to see her face again.

Q

The Need to Grieve

I feel that I have no right to party or be high even if its a means to break the tension and my mind off the misery and grieving.

But I feel a deep sense of responsibility to grieve. Because I see it as the right thing to do.

To show the respect. To show that her lost matters.

I feel that by grieving , it is the only thing I can do to help close this chapter of my life and the Final Chapter of hers.

I do not think I've been a good owner at all and I feel a need to grieve to repent my sins; whatever they were.

Her love was unrequited . And Unconditional.

Was mine ever?

Will never forget the final look she gave; one of yearning and misery .... even loneliness.

Did she know her end was near?

Is it fair that her life and death were in our hands?

I am broken.

And I want to show it because SHE MATTERS.

Q

Foxxxy, my dear, you'll be home soon...

Bye-Bye~ Foxxxy

My best friend, My dog.

Has gone to a better place.

> For all the experiences shared good or bad, all is in the past. All is forgiven. All will be remembered.

Your distinct character, your mannerism, YOU.

R.I.P Foxxxy Cleopatra.

For all the good times we've had over the years, thank Q.

I only wished I was a better owner. I do. I'm heart broken.

BB Pretty Girl.