Time to Get my SEXY Back

Heart Ache: The cruelty of being taken for Granted

When the lust and honeymoon period is over and you get to see the person deteriorating right before your eyes, it hurts.

Let's call this person I 've foolishly gave my heart, body and soul to, 'A'.

I'm still blindly in love btw. Just really disgruntled and disillusioned. Pain and more pain.

Lemme tell you my sad story:

1) It started when they 'A' became highly unreliable when it comes to keeping promises and staying true to their words and said-appointments.

'A' could promise to meet and cancel the appointment minutes before meeting up. Doing this over and over again , over multiple dates.

Makes you feel betrayed and like a fool. Your time , energy and effort in pushing everything else aside doesnt seem to matter .

2) Then you realise that 'A' takes conversations lightly. 'A' doesn't remember the things discussed. 'A' doesnt care the issues talked about; even the pivotal ones regarding the relationship; like how I feel or what needs to improve to make the relationship postive.

I'm always left wondering 'Didn't we have this conversation before? You talk about it like its new and surprising. You don't care or remember do you? '

3) Broken promises of 'I will call' and 'I will inform you'. Taking it lightly once again. And caring little of your schedule and waiting.

4) Lying or trying to escape a situation when confronted. What da hell is wrong in being honest? There's no deep dark secret is there?

5)Not messaging/ calling/replying me for hours and even days/weeks on end. MSN messaging is FREE. SMS is cheap and takes mere seconds to send. Calls can be a short 5 mins even just before bed time. None. Simply cannot be bothered. 'Tired' and 'busy' are but lame excuses over a lack of effort and commitment.

6) Ego and Issues. Cannot take critisms. Cannot take judgements even when all are positive and contructive. Well, YOU STARTED IT ; being the total a**. So how can I not say? Especially when I've made it clear that non of the critisms is directed at the person but at the attitude towards bending the relationship.

7) Generally being Un-Nice. Unromantic. Abrasive. Flighty. Detachment and Escapism.

8) Worst of all : Insensitive. Already the total jerk-off and still making comments like 'You should take an STD test' out of the blue or when I I bought 'A' a Xmas gift, 'A' actually said 'Is this gift new? (As in is it a recycled gift?) .

W T F .

Love is indeed blind for ... I'll say it again : I'm still blindly in love btw. Just really disgruntled and disillusioned. Pain and more pain.


*** It seems 'A' just wants the perks of a relationship. Taking and not giving.

Baby,

Love is like a bed of roses. There're the torns too when you roll over after making Love.

Q...

Why can't there be commitment to happiness?

ISSUES. Reclaiming my Dignity , I try.

Silence is not Golden...***

... in a Relationship.

There are the upheavals.

The ups and downs. But problems don't solve themselves.

Only through open and positive communication will things work out.

Talk it out. Make it happen.

Q ... BB .. If you're reading this... :)


*** Only a Tan, is. :P

Let's talk about (No) Sex

The Dalai Lama, , on Friday said

sex spelt fleeting satisfaction and trouble later, while chastity offered a better life and "more freedom."

"Sexual pressure, sexual desire, actually I think is short period satisfaction and often, that leads to more complication,"

He said conjugal life caused "too much ups and downs.

"Naturally as a human being ... some kind of desire for sex comes, but then you use human intelligence to make comprehension that those couples always full of trouble. And in some cases there is suicide, murder cases," the Dalai Lama said.

He said the "consolation" in celibacy is that although "we miss something, but at the same time, compare whole life, it's better, more independence, more freedom," the Dalai Lama waxed eloquent on the Buddhist credo of non-attachment.

"Too much attachment towards your children, towards your partner," was "one of the obstacle or hindrance of peace of mind,"

he said.



I'm at a cross-roads myself. At a heartache.

The power of suggestion is strong when one's in a dire circumstance.


Q ... But I do not necessariy equate sex with love?

I Still Believe

Affairs of the heart is the most painful .

So painful that you'll come to a point that the blame game is but a pointless revisit to the wound.

So it stops.

And all you hope and all you wish for is understanding , love and reconciliation.

Time will heal all wounds?


Q ...I still believe.

Broken Promises lead to a Broken Heart

Was blog surfing , just can't fall asleep with all this pain in me.



How true:

"....too much pain can really melt away the love.. whenever you think about *** and you remember all those hurtful things *** had done (intentionally or not) the flame keeps on burning... as much as you want to forget about it.. it is not that easy.. there are times when you think about it as if your brain has an automatic alarm that will remind you that "this is what *** has done to you" and tha pain will be felt all over again and you'll start to cry...

crying.. your only escape from the pain that you're feeling... and makes you wish you won't feel it again...

at times i still have this automatic alarm in my brain that reminds me of all the painful things that happened to me and it makes me scared, that maybe one day i'll be experienceing it again and worse with the same person.. ( now that's emotional suicide)... "


Can anyone be so inconsiderate and hurtful?

Especially when there's is supposed to be love in the mix?

Q... I pray this pain will go away.

>>>>
Thank you ... Drama Queen @ http://dramaqueen-andeng.blogspot.com/2008/04/on-love-and-pain-and-wanting-more.html

R.E.S.P.E.C.T pls

I really don't understand why relationships have to be made so complicated.

When you love some one, do you not show care, concern and respect ?

I'm not asking for money or blood.

All I asked is the simple action of consideration and integrity in one's actions and words.

Is this person's heart made of stone? ... When a promise is broken once too often, this person has become nothing more than a Liar (?!).
I don't want to acknowledge that . But my baby is becoming. :(:::

Q ....Is my heart made of stone?

Sigh.

Where it hurts the most

Are we addicted to pain?

There's just no perfect love. None there is.

You invest in it and it empties you.

For all that its worth is all that I ask.

Q