What is there to Celebrate?

This hols is making me rot.

Boredom allows us to think and ponder too much.

On how life stinks. On how everything is still ungratifying and undone.

Happiness never last. Pain is always there.

Sounds like I'm falling into the Year-end / Xmas Blues yeah.. ?

Perhaps.

But it's revealing isn't it?

>My rooms as messy as ever with a ton of stuff I don't need and ought to be thrown out or reorganized. But is ultimately, undone.

>And my relationship problems is a numbing pain that is killing me every moment of my existence.

2008 had been the MOST EVENTFUL YEAR OF MY LIFE.

SERIOUSLY .
(More of which I'd elabo when the (year) End is near. So much. So much.)

And right now, it seems an on-going trend to a bad ending to a terrible chapter of my life.

Depressive eh?

Q ...

How I'd wish I was actually busy.. so at least, I'd be too distracted to gloat on how life IS.

Pretty Dead falling off the Top

You come from a foreign land. You speak little to communicate with those who matter.

You feel the desperate need to succeed because it was a leap of faith that brought you there in the first place.

There's nothing to go back to. No future even.

No turning back.

Try Hard or Die Trying.

Indeed.

Supermodel Ruslana Korshunova.

She worked her way to the top and it's dizzying to stay up there.

That's why she fell off to her death.

RIP .


Q
It ain't easy with titans like Tyra, Gisele and Heidi around.

The only Break is Death itself

A sudden lost of my Dearest. A culture shock brought upon by a change in working environment. A financial wreck.

This period in my life right now Messed up.

I'm Messed Up.

It's like everything has been overwhelming and undermining this Soul.

My nerves are frayed and my heart is weakened.

Every moment right now is with a batted breath.

I find myself pacing and racing.

When will I find Peace Ville and Comfort Zone?
(There is no progression. There is no efficiency. Things I need RIGHT NOW.)

Held back and stalled... is frustrating to keep a brave front.

Who will understand?

Q

PS: I'm possibly on my spiral way down to depression or complete insanity...

Whatta Fool

When sick and not resting but waiting for nothing.

When tight but spending and splurging too much for nothing.

When famished and not gorging but rushing and all for nothing.

FOOL.

F**king FOOL.

Q

Happy Pills

The Stresses of doubt on the Impending new year ahead get's one allCRANKY.

What's bothering?

Hmmm let's see, I've got my second attachment, 1 final pesky sem before I graduate from university, getting into my new job, getting my business rolling, getting a new car.... a lot?!

With so many idiots bumming in and out of my life ever so often and the constant struggle of will-power, physical strengh, mental endurance , personal aspirations and obligated reality, it's such a Hassle.


B'cos Life's A Biatch so ,

What I need now is lot's of tea to sooth the soul,
chocolate to lift the mood, sex to erm... and Anti-depressants to stay high.

Happy Pills, where do you get them???


Above: Brand X
Below: Brand Y

Which pill is Happier? :OP

Fighting DEPRESSION

We all have days when depression sets in ....

The helplessness. The frustration. The dilemmas. The torment.

For all thosereading my post.... let's discuss. Feel free to let loose here ... LOL

How does one fight depression?

i) Exercise?
ii) Drink you sorrows away?
iii) Get high on _________ ?
iv) Talk to some one? Pour you hearts out...
v) Dance the night away
vi) Get into a boxing session
vii) Holla at the open sea
viii) Holla at that loved one you take for granted ever so often?
ix) Cry and let tears drain it all away...
x) Or simply ... sulk . 'Shucks! Shucks! Shucks!' (haha)

OR... are you already on medication? Then my heart does go out to you. :[)