Good? ~Good luck with that.

"Good he says."

The intimidating photographer made this comment at the end of the test shoot.

Haven't I heard this before, umpteenth times over?

In an industry that lies more than it talks, I'm experienced enough to know that it's not a guarantee I'm getting the job.

Not even close.

Fingers continue to cross; but there won't be no sleepless nights for this model.

He knows too well.

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When will it N?

Can anyone be so insanely and so inhumanely busy to end up messy with their own schedule?

I know I DID!!!!

Was rushing from one job to another and I was rushing the hell thru a meal for what's it's worth and was quickly on my way.

Rushing and the panting. Up the elevator to the floor and was about to step out and then it hit me:

"What day is it today?" " Am I suppose to be here or some where else?"

" OMG !!!!! SOMEWHERE ELSE!!!! "

Shucks!

And that 'somewhere else job' is hella far away.

Not even remotely close by. 'WOULD' have been on time. ...

I need a break , pronto!

Hearts Out 2 ?

What is Loving for 'All the Wrong Reasons?'

What is Loving for 'All the Right Reasons?'

Is there such a thing? Can it be justified?

Hearts Out 2?

Something has to give.....


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Cow Dawg

Today I was out for yet another out-door shoot.

The location was amazing. The female model, Sherri, is gorgeous and for once, a model who isn't messed up or having 'an Attitute'. Cool.

*Am so havving the hots right now... haha. :P

Anyway, my dawg , Foxxy came along. She's the cutest!!!
Pics up once I get them! haha

Did manage a sneek peek at the shots and I'm excited.

Stay tuned. A:-D

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The Tree Branch

Things I DON'T do for a Living. ^^

C'mon! Anyone who thinks modelling is a job has got to be kiddin. LOL

It's for the passion. Period.

Whatever drives you to it or continue in it when the goin gets dreary and tough, that's up to you ,of cos.

Say for instance, I was at another outdoor shoot. ( I was manipulated to lie on my back precariously, btw.)

(This is of course, not the tree I'm talkin about. But its a Ballerina Tree:)n I gotta put it here)

" Up the tree!" , screams the Art director.

" Shift that damn leg!" , he screams again.

" Less Arch to the back!" , he ... you know. :p

And all this while, I was on the verge of losing my Life cos the branch was a mere 4-inches thick with moss on it .

Nerve wrecking. Phew.

One false move and this blogger here would have blogged no more. :(:::

Gawd.

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ps: The whole setting was amazing. In fact, the whole place was. The fresh air, the lush greenery. The wide open spaces. The spacious and romantic colonial apartments and mansions. Wow. I so gotta live there some day even for while. :O)

Clique

Wateva.

So wat are you? A goose? An ostrich?

A chicken?

OR

A Duck?

Hee!



OK? :OP

I don't believe in Cliques.

I do belive in Bullsh*t ,though.

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Cow Boy n Cow Girl

The Naked Cow Boy : World Famous Basker of Times Square New York
Wah COW!!! My feet hurts like hell.

The Cow Boy boots are a killer. The blisters, the abrasions and the aches that came along with it made the short walking distances from the make-up and hair a tediously long and tiresome process.

WTF.

But, hey, I ain't complainin b'cos I got a sneek preview of the shots, and they are FAB!!!

Even better than Day 1, as a whole, me thinks :) .

Today, the photographers were fighting the poor lighting as the photoshoot only began at 5pm where the sun was on the wrong side of the sky.

Still, the female model, Natika, is pretty.
And I'm more confident of working with this crew and the clothes as well. And it kinda shows.

Cheerios and I can hardly wait til the final photos are in.

Keep ya'all posted for the pix!!!

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To Each His Own

Isolated worlds of Ideals
Indeed , as Shine-Sheen put it so eloquently once too often (LOL).

Tom said to me just the other day 'We are Individuals'.

We lead our lives the way we see fit. We have our hopes and dreams to fulfil. We're careless about certain things while we hail others.

Indeed, MY SHOES ARE FOR ME AND ME ALONE TO STEP IN

We live our lives hoping the world is a kinda place. A less strange a place.
A less complicated place.

But that's in mystical crystal balls. Make-belief.

But We can all dream a little can we, not?

Or have you something unkind to say about this as well?

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Hallelujah

Your faith was strong .

But you needed something to tell you that it's time to Let Go.

Soon, many things will be coming to an end.

> My current Life as a student.

> My day's of struggling to pay for my life and it's style.

> Relationships with people who were good to have at a point in time. But have turned cold and cruel.

Things have moved on. It's time for me too.

You wished it wouldnt end. But you've also been longing to move on.

Hallelujah.

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Ken ken.. Ken not??? How?!

Is THAT 'Ken'? ..... Ken?

THE Person I need to impress so badly for the next year, Ken?

Bcos If it really is HIM.. I'm half screwed because I'm not quite sure If I impressed him much ... or at all...
Hmm.

OH NO ... OMG.

He is only like THE Casting director I need to impress right now!!!

Screwed!!!!

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ZZZZZouk

Zouk, the supposedly famous club looks like hell during the day sans the crowds, the darkness, the smoke and the lights.

Hideous. LMAO.

The flooring looks worse than the Void Decks.

Done with a Commercial Shoot there today ..... an absolutely pointless one at that.

And all I can remember is the dinky club. And the zzz, oh yes, the Pointless shoot.

Where all the models try their best to out pose, out dance and out strut each other.

PS: That caucasian-esque model stinks. I can't understand why he is the main model.Just because he's whitey.... yucks. C-M-I .
VOMIT.
What next? Dear Tourists.... lemme present to you ... Singapore's Next Top Model?
Zzzzz. ^^

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Now... SHINE !

The wait is ,indeed, almost over

Time to SHINE. A:-D

Glamourous Zouk... here I come!!! ** .. b dazzled...

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That's Capricorn 4 U

Born in Early January That makes me a Capricorn. ^^

No Candles so as not to remind me how freeekin Old I am .

Awfully Me. LOL

The CAPRICORN MAN

The Highlighted are SO TRUE of me or what others have said of Yours Trully ^^ :

So let's see...

A man in this Zodiac will has a pair of round big beautiful eyes, a nice structure jaw line.

He is a good listener and can understand everything
easily and clearly. He can guess what you will say before you even say it. He often shakes his head or touch his hair. He is a big built, but he will tend to have a small ear. He tends to have a darker shade of hair and eyes' color. He will likely have a short and strong neck, broad shoulder, muscular, strong hands and grips. He has a shorter fingers compare to the man of the same size and same height in the other zodiac. His hands can work well at the same time can protect and care for his woman.

His height will be proportional to his weight.

He will walk firmly and always take a big long step.

As he walks he will look around in caution with
no disturbance from his problems at present or in the past.

He likes to watch things built with fascinate and wonder about how it is done, so you
could see him watching a construction site and not get bored.

He is a good dancer. He is a careful person in instinct, so even at dance
floor, he will already have to know what in front or behind him before he
will take any steps.

Green is his favorite color. You will mostly see him wear green, navy, blue,
or brown. In all 12 Zodiacs, he is the one who can get the most satisfaction
from possession of beautiful thing, and cherish it as if it is very valuable
to him even it is just a crystal ball made in France.

It is his luck that he hardly has to chase after woman. They always come
themselves without his invitation. He likes to treat his guest in his house
than visiting his guest at their house. He does not like to be a center of
attention, so if you need his help, you have to look up for him. He lives
his life in stability and simplicity. Every decision made are already "Sure"
and carefully thought out. He will not do what he has been asked to do if he
is not interested in doing it. He acts casually but in reality, he always
doing things seriously.

He loves peaceful and quiet environment so in his free time, he will stay at
home instead of going out and look for adventure. He loves nature and dreams
of a nice and quiet house with lots of trees, or he may dream of a house in
a beautiful countryside.

He will let you have freedoms and watching you in a distance. If you are
over doing something, he will let you know by his icy cold look. He is the
perfect lover in all the Zodiac for nothing he will not do for his love one.

He won't allow people to laugh at him or think he is a joker, so he will
spent for himself luxury for what it is worth.

He likes neat and well dressed woman, so do not be a slop if you are dating
this guy. If you do that he will loose his face. He is the romantic type who
would dance with you under the moon light.

Love will make him shines and you will see it in his face. He will not say
it out loud, you have to know it yourself.


My only point of contention:
I don't like Green. In fact , I am advised against wearing the color b'cos it's bad luck for me... Hmmmm.

Gimme RED, BLACK, WHITE , PURPLE or Gold Hues ...anytime . :)

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Lucky Ugly Fugly

Beware: I'm an EGG BEATER. ^^

It really riles the hell out of me when I see Ugly Fuglies getting *LUCKY*.

Period.


B- !!!

(that stands for a middle finger btw, LOL.)

The Wait is (almost) Over. I (just)know it.

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Red Light Flashing

Top 5 Yucks of 2007:
1)Had a traumatic first Attachment; I, like, totally lost myself.

2)Meeting Bastards, Bitches, Bulls, Boars, Baboons and Bodohs, in every conceivable situation and imaginable place. (Getting Robbed on ZO-2007 tops the list)

3) Getting an Undeserved Bad Grade for a Module.(This TOPs it ALL; B*tch!)

4) Too much Aspiration too little inspiration

5) Getting Older.



Top 5 YoooHOOs of 2007: :

1)Getting into a New Modelling Agency and a sweet Booker.

2)Meeting Gorgeous People (like Falling in Luuuuuuuvvve)

3)Seeing my hard work and commitments pay off on my kiddos

4)Getting Older and Wiser (Don't know if it's proportionately so,though)

5)Renewed Aspirations and blooming inspiration.

.... Looking forward to a BIGGER AND BETTER Yours Trully. :-)

" A clean Golden slate,
thinking Red and big, looking good
and feeling Gorgeous." :OP
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Workaholic ... is coming to Town

Ok, folks have known me to be a ruthless-slave-driver.
I work 24-7 and my time-tabling is a killer for most people.

It's a wonder I can hit the gym, go for runs, watch a movie and hang with frens.... and blogging right now. Hmmm.

For the bigger part, I'm officially a WORKAHOLIC.

All I can think of is work and my schedule is filled to the brim.

You know what, I've even planned my work-load straight through the final Christmas weekend, Christmas eve and The Day itself.

Winner. An Absolute No life winner.

...what can i say?

I'm not getting any younger. If it ain't now, then WHEN???

Sun kissed White Christmas

This is what I Wanna... get a bronzey RE-tan and my navel-piercing RE-done. ;OP


These days, it's cold cold cold !!! Wet Wet Wet.

As Christmas is approaching, the

Sun is Seldom Out .

(After giving us Summer all year round, Mr. Solar is taking his own Winter break this season.)

So how will I be able to "RE-" ? ^^(

Absolut-ly Disco

Still trying to come to terms with the psychological trauma of Me being ROBBED. And how I feel insulted, slighted and violated, not to mention how some of my friends who've been dragged into the whole fiasco.

A BIG THANK Q too all my beloved pple ( J, DaRone, Lewd, LnDa, Fish, Joyce and even Yol herself etc.) who've given me words of encouragement.

All that negativity aside, I'm still trying to savour the best moments of ZoukOut 2007. B'cos I'd want to remember the good times

(and to learn from mistakes).

There was the thumping music of Amin, the hot bods,the posers, the skanks, the whores, the SPGS et al. Then there was the camaraderie. With so much skin to show, mingling is often easy...

Overall, this year, there were more activities lined, better service, better crowd control, and of cos, way more crowds.

And then there was Absolut Disco-Vodka. :-)

Perhaps this, downing a few more mixes , Vodka-mixes I mean, not DJ Mixes although it helps, will perhaps lessen the Pain.

I guess the Pain is due both to the scale of the inccident and the fact that it bitterly closed what could have been a Highlight party-moment for me and my friends for 2007.

Now, after the Disco, and back into the real world, there's still the Mess to b cleared... :0/

Robbed and Violated

Model Adrianne Curry was robbed .
Model Adrian Qyn was robbed, too.


ZoukOut 2007 was lotsa fun. I made quite a fashion statement too apparently.

But that's not the thing I'd remember for this year's Party.

1) I've never been more exhausted. My legs are about break and I've got terrbible abrasions due to the wet sand.

2) But what will 4eva etch in my mind is that My CAR GOT ROBBED.

In terms of valuables, me , Yol and Mich lost over a thousand dollars worth of personal items and more expensive stuff. Not to mention drinks.

But it's not the material loss that is painful.

It's the hassle it brings and the psychological trauma that is , my car ,

a personal space, was broken into and violated.

So painful . It more than hurts or stings. My chest simply felt no heart beat at that point when I exclaimed :

" I think we were robbed."

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I JUST DO NOT WANT to disappoint those who have put so Much effort, time and belief in me.

I'm WORTH IT. And I must show that I'm not some 'wasted investment'.

Very seldom in our lives do we think about disappointing others. Mostly it's just about ourselves and our goals and aspirations; how to fulfil them.

But this is one of those rare moments that I just hope to succeed ... so as not to fail those others.

That hollow and shallow sense of hopelessness just bores deeper into you.

And you only hope for that ' One Moment in Time' ... that you will Shine.