You're a Star to a T

(Star Turtle; the album by Harry Connick Jr.)

Foxxxy's been gone for slightly over a month now ... and my fam's still searching to fill that large vacuole in our lives right now.

Something more to pet and feed.

Not just Caspian the Guinea Pig. (ok, go ahead, laugh.)

So we got two... Indian Star Turtles.

Beautiful and endangered.

Well, they've got a beautiful home now. And are Lucky . Because we'll take great care of them.

Here's a PROMISE!!! :)


Q

>>> What should we call them? ... (watch this space^^.)

She deserves better

It's been Exactly 1 MONTH since Foxxxy's passing.

And there are A**holes out there who are careless, insensitive, sarcastic and ignorant of her unfortunate demise.


Making twisted comments.

Rude & petty imbeciles.

GTH, You F*ckers.

You belong to a Zoo.


>>

"All dogs go to Heaven. And (some) f*ckers will go to hell..."

Q


(>> RIP Foxxxy. Missed dearly.)

Miss Piggy

Since Foxxxy left to be with the Lord, my fam has been searching for that missing thing in our lives right now:


Dearly missed so...

Something to Pet N Feed.

The list of animals we've gone through is so ridiculous (monkeys, rare turtles, snakes, scorpions etc.) I won't even bother to divulge further 'case this blog looses credibility or ,worse, PETA barking down my A**.

So, my brother's been talking about getting something we don't have to walk in the evenings.

A guinea pig.

Well, I suggested that since if we ever got one, it's gonna be special and pretty. LOL

So, how about this : The Peruvian Satin.

So what say you? Blond, Black, Brown or Red-head? :-)

Q


> Bigger question... where to even find one in a Pet store...? Anyone?...

Life after Death

Today, while driving out , at the junction just outside my place, I saw a Puppy.

A puppy with brindle coloring. A white stripe down the middle of it's head.

A personality that shines through even from a far.

A bull terrier.

And I think of Foxxxy which I just lost.

I felt a strange feeling of 'coming full circle'.

Like I finally had a closure. Ready to accept that She's gone. Moved on . And life goes on.

Strangely, I felt a sense of ... recognizing the dog....

Do you believe in 'After life? '

... Really an unexplainable feeling of finally finding peace.

Q

7 Days

She's been gone. She IS GONE.

Life goes on. We cope.

We still grieve. But when the grieving stops, she's still Gone.

So very missed.

R.I.P Foxxxy Cleopatra. ... it's been a Week.

Q

> My fam is beginning to find peace.

Ashes to ashes

... Dust to Dust.

R.I.P Foxxxy Cleopatra.

.... you're back home.

Q

I'd give the World to see Her face again..

The only two songs I'd listen to right now.

When one has lost a dearest, they feel like the whole world is a crumpling. There is this void in my life right now. A sense of purposelessness with out her existence.

I start thinking of all the times we've had and start drawing up a mental list of things I should and could have done and those that I would or should not have.

No matter, the reality is that she's gone. And will never come back.

And all I can do is moan and grieve and beat myself up for all the things I 've said, thought and done but should have not. And all that that I ought to.

No words can describe the deep sorrow I am in right now and because out of respect, this is a must for me to come full circle.

Foxxxy
> From here on, it is a turning point in my life in so many ways, both personally, professionally, socially and spiritually. It's a hard journey that I am unfortunate not being able to have her around.

A New opening chapter for me. And a closing one for her.

I'd give the world to see her face again.

Q

The Need to Grieve

I feel that I have no right to party or be high even if its a means to break the tension and my mind off the misery and grieving.

But I feel a deep sense of responsibility to grieve. Because I see it as the right thing to do.

To show the respect. To show that her lost matters.

I feel that by grieving , it is the only thing I can do to help close this chapter of my life and the Final Chapter of hers.

I do not think I've been a good owner at all and I feel a need to grieve to repent my sins; whatever they were.

Her love was unrequited . And Unconditional.

Was mine ever?

Will never forget the final look she gave; one of yearning and misery .... even loneliness.

Did she know her end was near?

Is it fair that her life and death were in our hands?

I am broken.

And I want to show it because SHE MATTERS.

Q

Foxxxy, my dear, you'll be home soon...

Bye-Bye~ Foxxxy

My best friend, My dog.

Has gone to a better place.

> For all the experiences shared good or bad, all is in the past. All is forgiven. All will be remembered.

Your distinct character, your mannerism, YOU.

R.I.P Foxxxy Cleopatra.

For all the good times we've had over the years, thank Q.

I only wished I was a better owner. I do. I'm heart broken.

BB Pretty Girl.

All Swell is not Well

I'm missing my good ole Foxxxy...(below; happier times)
Foxxxy's head may be big. BUT NOT THIS BIG !!!!

The swelling has made her head nearly twice its original size.

IT'S HUGE!!!! :(

Lymphoma , the Vet says.

Cancer , for everybody else.

"Lymphoma is the most common malignant cancer treated in veterinary oncology. In dogs, the most common presentation for lymphoma is multiple non-painful enlargements of peripheral lymph nodes. It is most common that dogs with lymphoma present without any clinical signs of illness in spite of these enlarged lymph nodes. In most cases lymphoma is thought of as a disseminated disease, where the malignant lymphocytes exist in many tissues through the body."

(It can be remission ed; really??????)

I'm devastated.

Q

2cond that or I won't

My Foxxy has Cancer.

So says the vet.

But that quick? That sudden?

Seeking a second opinion or I'm no Believer.

Deeply affected. :(:::

Q

Worrying

My Dawg is sick.

Very sick.

She won't eat.

She's swelling in the stomach and intestines.

Her lymph nodes have been huge for weeks now.

That stoooopid f*cking Vet said it's ok. It's alright. It's Normal.

Just got a second opinion and questions have been raised. Alarms ringing.

Too terrible to write here for fear of jinxing. (Bawl!)

If anything happens to dearie.

I'll sue his ass off. #$%^&*(*&#$!!!!

Q...I Pray.

Cow Dawg

Today I was out for yet another out-door shoot.

The location was amazing. The female model, Sherri, is gorgeous and for once, a model who isn't messed up or having 'an Attitute'. Cool.

*Am so havving the hots right now... haha. :P

Anyway, my dawg , Foxxy came along. She's the cutest!!!
Pics up once I get them! haha

Did manage a sneek peek at the shots and I'm excited.

Stay tuned. A:-D

Q